Don't use Her Love to Fill Your Loneliness

when u were with her u dont even know how to cherish her~

when u lost her that time and u start to missed everything about her~

u are not missed but u already get used to talked with her~

u just want to keep her because u think she still love u~

but u don't even realize the words that u had said its hurt deeply~

its can't easy to erase in the mind~

Don't use Her Love to Fill Your Loneliness

when u were with her u dont even know how to cherish her~

when u lost her that time and u start to missed everything about her~

u are not missed but u already get used to talked with her~

u just want to keep her because u think she still love u~

but u don't even realize the words that u had said its hurt deeply~

its can't easy to erase in the mind~

Before 2012

there is a nite that god still love me~
im not alone on 2011 christmas~
i had celebrated my christmas at genting highland~
well...i had start my another work in genting on sept~
which is everyday bring people from the some place to genting~
what they doing there????
guess that what can we do in genting?? ~~~ Casino~~
so on my christmas,i got a lucky draw section-guy larchroe wallet,and exchange gift-lazo diamond necklace..i feel lucky i got it...coz this is the second time i got the lucky draw in genting~
need to thx to my lucky number-7~

i wish that coming christmas will be great on 2012^^

Lonely Christmas 2011

its been a while i dint blogging,i just found that actually i have manything always keep inside my heart and dint release and even sharing out~

a lonely nite christmas at slim river~
a place that without any entertainment,quiet~

my mind full of manything~
a special nite im not suppose to be alone~
i cherish every special day,but why always stuck on work???
i really dont like about it~
suppose to off but grandmother was passed away and i should work to genting the following day~

christmas nite for me should be celebrate with someone special??
i guess that even i have someone i still will be alone~
that's why nobody know am i single or taken???
coz i never told people that the someone is really mean alot to me to be my real BF~~
and does they really love me with all their heart??

say love are easy...but never do that~~
that's what make me feel dissapointed and never expect anymore~
i will give one time chance,second chance but no more 3rd chance??
u should never let me give u the chance even once~~

Love keep searching and searching in this year~
i dint found that someone is really suit for me~
i guess that i need someone that really feel im important to them!!
not just say,but reaction to prove that~
expected make me more down from someone,its really make me crazy~
but why is only U??
we were confusing for so long time,even got U but i feel there is nothing~

plz...girls need secure~~ without secure there is 0~~

hope my new year eve 2012 will not be alone~

Our Beloved GrandMother

2011年12月8日~我们谢家最敬爱的婆婆离开了我们。。

婆婆的突然生病也意识了人的岁数到了。。

婆婆就要去另一个世界了。。

遗憾的是，我经常做工，很少去看婆婆了。。

就在婆婆去世的前几天去探望婆婆，也是最后一次探望婆婆了。。

婆婆病发进医院，我从kkb 赶回去。。那时是在医院还不能看到婆婆。。

婆婆选择回家不想在医院痛苦下去了。。

就在婆婆推出医院那一个。。全都哭了。。婆婆也哭了。。

医生说一旦拔了氧气管就没了。。

送到家时，婆婆不寂寞，因为有我们儿孙陪到最后。。

婆婆意志力很强。。第二天下午，就在这个时候，爸爸想帮婆婆从嘴巴弄出痰来。。

那一刻婆婆不开嘴巴，就在我们的眼前走了。。

我也亲眼看到婆婆就这样走了。。

享年80岁~

瞧这张照片。。婆婆笑得多么灿烂啊。。

我错过了很多家庭聚会。。也再也看不到婆婆的笑容了。。

当我看到婆婆庆祝80大寿的时候我却工作。。看到照片里少了我，真的有点遗憾~

这时候让我感觉到工作固然重要，但钱是赚不完的。。

家人才是唯一，失去了就再也没有了。。

还记得小时候，每年放大假一定去婆婆家住。。

每次婆婆去巴杀买菜我都会跟随婆婆提着篮子去。。

婆婆每次都会买一包糖果给我吃，然后偷偷的跟我说：只是可以我吃，不可以给别人吃。。哈哈

想起时真的蛮怀念的。。

亲爱的你们~

记得常回家看家人哦~

岁月不留人~

珍惜眼前人吧~

~Mist Club~

its been a long time i didn't go to club~
when i do not have work~~ what's IM DOING??
i think i won't just stay at home~
so everytime i dont have work sure i will find my friends come out~
which is my chilling buddy~~ yew yew~~ she is a tour guide as well~
can said that if wanna drink can find her out..:D
5/10/2011~ i decide go to kl..she pick me up at pasar seni and we went to kepong waited another friends and we go to mist club..i dint know that we go there and when i reached there i just knew~ its last year and tonite im here again~
we went too early..and there is not much people..and got lots indian and malays~

the first time i get drunk..i had tried gin,rum,vodka,whiskey,long island..and i forgot how many cup i drinks...and i got drunk fast...omg~ suppose i went there for dance..but i got drunks and vomit for 3 times....really feel so confuse..lol~ we book a hotel coz we want to get drunk tonite..and drive back are not safe with drunk..!!! so we leave around 1.30am~

we booked the hotel its ''looh residence'' which is local at taman seputeh~there is not a hotel..
..its a bunglo..when the taxi driver drove us there..we were suprised.the room are nice...we get triple room..and we leave the next day on 12...its hardly to call a taxi..!!!

i reach home at evening..and i learn the experience...do not try all the drinks...its make u become blur..and i prefer drink a little...coz i can dance more....enjoy more~~^^

我可以装傻，但别以为我真傻..

~很多话我没说，别以为我不懂..

~骗我可以，但不要被我知道..

~我可以容忍，但别超过我的底线..

~我可以装傻，但别以为我真傻..

~不做第三者，即使再喜欢..

~不喜欢就是不喜欢，说什么也没用..

~任何的真话，我都能接受..

~对我不留情面的人，我会记住的..

~不给喜欢的人添麻烦..（

~在喜欢的人面前，能不哭就不哭..

~可以为喜欢的人做任何改变，但不试图改变他..

~用单纯的心对待朋友和为求我爱的人..

~对我关心的人，我会双倍回报..

~我不是没脾气，只是不轻易发脾气..

~我不暧昧，但不代表不会..

~宁缺毋滥，绝不因为寂寞而恋爱..

(宁缺毋滥：宁可缺少一些，也不要不顾质量一味的要求..)

~但是只要爱上一个人，我敢说绝对不是因为寂寞才跟她好的..

~如果你拿我不当回事，我会以同样的方式对你的..

~有些事情不要以为我真傻.. 只是不愿意揭穿你而已..！

~有些事情不要以为我真傻.. 只是我不想让你的形象在我心中完全破灭而已..！

错的人

明 知道愛情並不牢靠, 但是我還是拼命往裡跳,

明知道再走可能是監牢, 但是我還是相信只是煎熬。

朋友都勸我不要不要, 不要拿自己的幸福開玩笑,

但是做人已經那麼累, 假惺惺的想要逃,

在愛裡連真心都不能給, 這才真正的可笑,。

愛得太真, 太容易讓自己犧牲,

太容易讓自己沉淪, 太容易不顧一切滿是傷痕。

我太笨,

明知道你是錯的人,

明知道這不是緣分

但是我還奮不顧身。

可能在愛裡面這樣算笨，

可能永遠沒有​所謂永恆，

但是我不願放棄這裡面一點點可能，

寧願笨也不​想要悔恨。

明知道這不是緣分，但我相信有點可能。

别在伤口洒盐

男人不过是一件消遣的东西

有什么了不起?



太多太多, 可是

一个都不是我要的.



得不到的, 你更想要.

消遣过了, 游戏完了,

剩下的又是什么?



那种人不值得留恋

那些爱拖一天错一天

相爱的情歌你听不厌

相仇的局面你又躲不远



别让昨天在你伤口狂妄的洒盐

一碰就痛, 一想就悲

爱一遍教人老了好几十岁



冲掉心中爱的馀味,

再活一遍.



我选择伪装，伪装我的在乎、伪装我的疼，
而你，不用刻意​去把我遗忘，
却那么的轻而易举的把我遗忘，
还是那么的彻​底！

单身

为什么总是还有寂寞的感觉?

身边出现的终不是我要的~

而我要的总属于别人的~

不敢爱了~

或许，是害怕吧~

害怕今年是否会像之前的他们般~

失望．

单身茫然~

单身让人自由自在~

11/08/2011~I'm Back From My Blog~

since the last post i had done it was last year~
its already 8 months ago~
im happy that i can get back my blog coz my ex pc couldnt open the blog till now change another one i just get back the blog i had been missed alot~

In this year~
i learn alot of things as my friends i said i become big girl...lol
im mature girl~xd
life teach me how reality in this world~
people that we met will teach us more~

i met who let me know we cant easily believe people~
i met who let me know we cant do whatever we want~
i met who let me know you are such a liar~
i met who let me know money is not everything but we still need it~
i met who let me know how cruel u cant did to hurt a person just wanna hide ur reality~
i met who let me know they are always wearing the mask for their life~

i learn how to protect myself in love~
coz love make me hurt~
i never found the one i really want????

遇人不俗~

只让你受伤~

也让我学会成长~

寻寻觅觅

你还是不是我要找的那个他

~2011~

oh gosh...its been few month i dint update my blog coz i couldnt sign in...that's make me less write all my feeling here~
its been many things happened surround me~
i keep working & working till no time to rest~
manything i missed include the love~
im sorry if i dint make up any date to meet~
sometime will be feel lonely coz everything gone~

i hope 2011 will be great for me~

~bless~

累了~自然就会放手~

拖了那么久~
感情的破裂因而减少~
机会给得太多也变累了~
不如放手自由的飞~

the LOVE is end~
the fate stay but something lost~
wish the best of our life will sucess~

~it was good & bad~

9/10/2010 PANGKOR ISLAND

We have 9 buses and 9 tour guide lead the factory's tourist went to Pangkor island~
so its damn fun actually~ my bus tourist they are the factory's GM...got 4 japanese boss and organiezer...it was a bit stress coz some of them is the boss...but luckily they was good...nothing gonna happened and im happy also coz some of the feedback comment are good^^

while reached pangkor island we went to the city tour for 2 hour...after that free & easy in the nite~
so im with my friend ,ah kent,ah long ,bobo,chris...we 5 ppl ride 3 motorcycle around the island in the nite...it was fun but scared also coz some of the road so narrow and dark~~~~

in the next day...we went with happy trip^^

10/10/2010 SIngapore

got three 10...beautiful day...but not a good day...it was happened a terrible accident in the highway....that time i lead tour going to singapore...that day we got 21 buses going~ so coz the accident we jam there for 3 hour...the time was delay and some of the itinery will cancel(kusu island)according to the time already so late...but unlucky is my customers...they were the most leceh and uncorperate group....make me so angry....but luckily settle with peace coz i direct fetch them go to sentosa casino....~~~

hope the people happened in the accident can R.i.p

11/10/2010

the day back from singapore and having the dinner in the kulai...all the 21 buses customers gather dinner by the SERANAS travel & tours sdn.bhd company~

but that nite after drop customer already 2 am...we all are so tired..the most pity is me and another friend(joan) we back in the next day at 6am....but thx for the kind driver he even very tired but still sent us back to the place...and then i sleep until evening just wake up...lolx

~my goal~

~What's My Goal~

since i had graduated on my tourism study~
i had start my tour guide life~ at first is kinda hard for me~
but luckily have the singapore progamme which give me opportunity to lead tour and i have my stabil salary~
honestly im happy that i can earn money by myself~
before that my family always said u used the most family's money to study~
but now im graduated at least i can treat my family better~

working is my first choice~ ( because i wanna earn money by myself and with the money i can buy lots thing i wish to have it)

second is family~ i wanna treat my family good & good~

3rd~ love & friends

sometime coz of my working is suddenly lead tour...i need to break my promise like i dint bring my family to somewhere~ break the promise that i dint come coz of someone already make the special things for me~

i need sacrify something and get wat i want~~~i know im self-fish sometime...but if got working i will try my best to earn money~~

im SORRY~~~

for someone~
i know u always be there for me try to make me relax~
and did something just wanna to make me happy & sweet~
i know ur effort to win my heart~
sorry coz im self-fish in love~

~Genting Appreciate Nite~

30th of sept is the GENTING casino Group & Tour Appreciation nite
which is all the travel agency will come for the dinner~
and that day all the tour guides they have 1 room in the genting~
so 1 of my tour guide's friend she bring me go^^
so i just join the dinner^^

after the dinner we went to saito's pub which is inside the genting~
we had some beer there and had fun^^

after that we went to see the nite view at genting~
it was so cool....lolx~~
after that we went to sleep~~ZZzz

~my career~

well~been few month dint updated my blog coz im busy-ing with my working~
this 2 month i had been hard-working running to SINGAPORE~
well~ i think already more than 15 times i went..lolx
coz my job is lead people go to Singapore resort world sentosa CASINO~^^
too many time i went until the security guide also can recognize me..haha
but 1 point is they always check my passport so long coz they think im underage(actually i just over 21)^^

what so special with this job????

coz that's the genting progamme just RM9 with genting member card then can go to Singapore^^ and im the tour guide which lead them go^^

well~this job can say kinda easy also but tiring coz long journey..@.@

in the RESORT WORLD SENTOSA upstair got the UNIVERSAL STUDIOS theme park^^
i got a free ticket tat day coz the ticket is 66 dollar for weekday and tat day i went is sunday,the ticket is 72 dollar..convert to RM is Hundred something~~

well~ i got a free why not just go..haha..even that day i was damn tired coz just came back from Sin..but coz the free ticket i went again..( working + playing) so good^^ but really need to thk to the OP^^

well~there some pics can check it out..but some still at my friend there^^

well~
i was had fun at here^_^

我真的开心吗？？

过去很多事情发生~
自己的决定~
太冲动的选择只能自己扛~
家人的反对，一些朋友的劝告~我也听进了~
我只能见步看步~
有某些原因不能说~但因那些原因让我透不过去来~
你我所遇到的，从你身上体验的？？？should i deserve this everything????
有时不能怪我对你的冷淡~
有些事情发生了就是发生了~
有些事情屡次的从复。。。我已经麻木了~也厌倦了这一切~我累了~

一个完整的爱~因你错误的选择而减少了~你也应该对你的过错负起责任~~~

sometime i really cant breathe at all~~~

that's your life?????
u should know how to make ur life better than bother other people~

the love still exist???

Recently

recently my life kinda busy and no time to blogger~
today i just have some time to blogger^^
let me tell U wat recently im doing..hehe
well...end of the jun i quit my office job at travel agency!
after that i got my license i start to doing my tour guide~ freelance tour guide~

on july~
i been to cameron highland which is our college's student organized~
we went to gua tempurung at perak~
kinda nice coz 1st time i climb the gua^^
after tat continue our cameron trip^^

♥ trip to cameron highland 2010♥

the month of the birthday for my daddy and cousin^^

♥ family ♥

click here u will see the pics^^ its was a good memories and learn alot how to lead tour^^

after that..i had done 3 transfer and 1 student tour^^
its kinda fun for the student tour..i like it..at least i went to pusat sains negara,high 5 bread factory,beryl's chocolate factory,pusat islam and aquarium at shah alam^^
after that in the nite i went to clubbing at sunway * euro star *
its kinda bored abit the club...the replace of barcelona last time~~

♥ feel in the nite ♥

it was not bad~

and tomoro gonna go to JB...transfer again..but i think got the extra learning^^

about my love life~
its really complicated~
something did make me feel tired~
i wish can be more better~^^
i just wanna live for my life with peace^^

你為什麼說謊

这次我走开 再没有话要说出来
我不想在期待走下去 还能多精彩
我不了解你怎能心安
也抓不住你的倔强
可是我知道你 你为什么说谎

你说你还在 一分一秒也没走开
我想留在这里 可是这一切已太晚
我不能再像以前一样
为我们的明天疯狂
你不必解释 你为什么说谎

你不能说我没有爱过 说我没等过难过
我也想说也许能重来我却还是沉默
你一直问我的心到底在不在
问我怎能不遗憾就丢去了爱
而我的泪 怎么就流下来

你说你还在 一分一秒也没走开
我想留在这里 可是这一切已太晚
我不能再像以前一样
为我们的明天疯狂
你不必解释 你为什么说谎

你不能说我没有爱过 说我没等过难过
我也想说也许能重来我却还是沉默
你一直问我的心到底在不在
问我怎能不遗憾就丢去了爱
而我的泪 怎么就流下来x2

你一直问我的心到底在不在
问我怎能不遗憾就丢去了爱
而我的泪 怎么就流下来